nothing to say...

It's one of those moods wherein I'm typing here just for the sake of having an entry...hehe I'm taking a break from packing my stuff(still haven't put in my clothes, I'm still trying to take out the stuff I feel won't be of use there).

ANyways, I tend to ramble just about anything when I get bored and I talk too much too when I get excited. Then when everybody is all high about something I just shut up and listen. And then people suppose that I'm not interested in them, but it's nothing like that...I just let people talk, listening to people talk rather than join in the conversation. I talk when I have something to share though, so that doesn't necessarily mean that I am not at all out of the conversation or uninterested at all....

See? I told you I tend to ramble...hehe

ANyways, I'm leaving for Beijing this Sunday. Pretty excited, pretty scared too. I have no idea what I'll be facing there.

You know?I have this dream...I want to be able to travel around by myself for awhile...see the world while I'm still young. But then again, my parent's will probably never allow it since I'm a girl.

packing up...

It's so hard to pack my whole life into just a single piece of luggage for the whole 7 weeks that I will be spending in Beijing! I made a list and all, but when I started throwing things in, the bag was full before I could even get through half the list. And I have not put even a single article of clothing in...
Candee's is even worse! She moved some of her stuff into my bag already, yet the zipper still won't close.

It's funny actually, when I was making the list, I thought that I would still have plenty of space after I finish packing to shop for loads of books in Beijing, or trinkets, or tea....for short, whatever I buy there. Sigh! I am starting to have a real headache as to how to put my clothes into my almost-full luggage.

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You know how classmates tend to get all chummy when they meet each other after years without seeing each other, even when they weren't all that close before? Anyways, I met one of my high school batchmates last night. She's still the same...but yeah, I waved to her but she kept on staring at me, without saying hello or any greeting at all...not that I'm complaining or anything. hehe

listening to...

I'm so in love with my Sunshine in the Heart CD! Master Yung Jao gave us the CD when we were having our officers meeting at the temple last Saturday night. The songs were performed by the youth members of Taiwan. Most of the songs are about friendship, being ourselves, or gratefulness for what's in front of us. The songs are all in Mandarin, one is Taiwanese. The songs are not the usual Buddhist type hymns, but the beats, tunes and rhythm were modern pop, just plain pop. It's easy to the ears yet there's a beat to tap to (or dance to, if you are the kinesthetic type). A couple of tracks are the slow, ballad-type though...but over-all, it's just fantastic!

By the way, went out yesterday to buy some stuff for Beijing. Even if there was a sale, there were only a few people in the mall. Description=you don't have to push here and there to get somewhere.

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You know how sometimes I feel my English is deteriorating, even though people still say that my English is good enough. I just feel that even when I still have this accent when I speak English, my english grammar is going down. I still read and write a lot, but I don't know...I just have a feeling that I am losing my grasp of the language

ouch!

I've changed my blog layout again..hehehe It's just something to take my mind off the pain for a while. My lower jaw is still kind of swollen on the left side...It hurts everytime I talk or yawn. And I can't move my head too much, coz everytime I do, I taste blood. So the operation for the third molar took about 2 and a half hours. My jaws were already pretty sore for staying open that long, and my eyes hurt from the glare of the overhead lights...actually my eyes didn't hurt, it was more like a headache. Anyways, the dentist had to use about 3 doses of anaesthesia because I still felt it when she started drilling and pushing on the tooth. Then we found out that my tooth was buried below the tooth beside it, which made it extremely hard to get it out so my dentist had to cut the third molar into 3 pieces before getting it out. Then after my tooth was succesfully cut into 3, the dentist still couldn't pull the lower tooth out. The reason was because my tooth was hooked into my jaw. It was pretty freaky lying down on the dentists' chair and looking up to see the dentist getting more and more utensils out and each one was bigger thn the last. Oh by the way, I have 8 sutures for the wound made by the incision. I looked in the mirror yesterday, and I think the wound is already closed but now I have this zigzag of blue thread at the back of my mouth.



Uh..sorry for that disgusting description...(Note: I already took out some of the more bloody details)

hey there

Hey you! How are you doing? I'm bored...so what else is new? hehe I just finished "Welcome to the Great Mysterious" by Lorna Landvik. Great story....Although a bit redundant at times. (which is so like my writing style) But then again, no two authors have the same writing style.

I'm having my wisdom tooth extracted tomorrow...Here's to another 3 days of no solid foods. hope I lose weight this time. I'm positive that I gained at least 5 pounds since graduation...

Hey there's this Agnes de Castro that is sending emails to my kichiko email add. I have a feeling that it's about the student council elections... I'd like to comment, but I'd rather not to. hehehe

writing...

With only a couple weeks left before I leave for Beijing, obviously, I can't start working, although I have a couple of job offers...Anyways, that's not the main point. I've started writing again...It's been ages since I've surrounded myself with nothing but words, letting them flow from my fingertips as I type them out. My brain was a bit rusty, being highly uncooperative, like me when I feel that I have not had enough sleep. I am still getting used to writing again, it's like I'm in my nascent stage again, where I am just learning how to describe things, how to put something into words...almost always, I run out of words or I forget what word is used to describe a situation... Either that, or wahtever I write just seems redundant. and I just delete the file and start all over again. I don't know if all this bumming is making me stupid or if I am just being overly critical of myself.

I'm happy that I'm doing something that I love again though...Reading and writing will always be a part of my life even though I start learning a new program for desktop publishing or when I learn to cook something new(the number of dishes I can make is countable using my fingers on one hand only haha)

no to junk food!

Had a check-up yesterday coz I've been experiencing shortness of breath for the past few weeks...I thought my infection had mutated and turned into something worse...but thank Buddha that I was not sick...in fact, my lungs were kinda dry...I just needed iron. Whew! Now that's off my chest..have to take iron supplements though and there are these little pills for the dryness in my lungs. Oh yeah, I'm not allowed to eat junk food. Waaaaaah!

I've been planning my life lately(again). Since I'm going to Beijing and I can't back out of that now, I will go to Beijing for the 50 day study tour...and then I come back, fix all my applications to the schools I want to go to in Vancouver, find a shelter to stay at and prepare to leave Manila to seek for a better life.(not just carrer-wise, but health-wise as well...I feel that if I get another allergy or infection, I'm going to cry real hard) hehe

I'm still planning...and it's making my head hurt since it's midnight already.... =P