Bye Grandma...I miss you

The past two weeks have been crazy. I've somehow become numb to everything thats happening. I just get up and go, not really putting my heart into anything. I simply just did. My family lost someone very dear to us. My grandma passed away last October 14. Up until the funeral, I was still in denial. I hoped that somehow everything was just a joke and grandma was just pulling a prank on us. No one expected this unfortunate event. A-mah was fine, there was no sign whatsoever that she'd be leaving us that day. She was following the routine she usually follows. Then, it happened. I was at work when my mom told me the bad news. I wanted to leave immediately. I was hoping that a miracle would take place and my a-mah would be at home, sitting at her wheelchair, with the maid helping her with dinner.But that didn't happen, grandma was really gone. The entire family grieved the loss of the bind that tied us all together. We all had different things to do, but she was the point where everybody was connected to. Now, everybody will be going their own ways, and it's going to be rare that we see each other. I will miss that, but I will miss my grandma even more. I cried the other day when I went to the house my grandma lived in. It was mainly becuase the lack of a familiar figure, the call of my grandma when we go in, asking us if we've eaten. Now the house is just empty.


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From this experience, I learned that some people can actually be both dense and tactless. Or just downright annoying. I thought one can only be one or the other. Read below, and see if you won't be annoyed. A is her, B is me. (words in parenthesis are my side comments)

A:Hi! My dad just came home and he saw you(at the funeral house). Condolence sa relative mo. Pano mo naging relative un?

B: It's my grandma...Thanx

A: I'm so sorry, di ko alam. Sabi lang ng dad ko relative mo. Condolence talaga. I know how much you love your gwa-ma. How are you doing?

B: No, not my gwa-ma, dad's side grandma. Ok naman..medyo busy the past few days coz work as usual ako. (By this message, I already wanted to hit her on the head. PLEASE...get your facts straight first.)

A: Oooopps...Sorry! Akala ko mom side mo c __________(Name of relative her dad visited) hehe Please extend my condolence sa dad mo. Naconfuse ako sa family tree mo. hehe

B: (What's so confusing about my family tree? If you asked first, you wouldn't be making that mistake. I didn't reply after this one.)

A: Buti na rin may leave ka na para di kaltas sweldo. :)

B: Kahit na wala ako leave, maglleave pa rin ako. Its my grandma no. (She just had to reply. GRRRR)

Mid-week respite

No work today...yey! I really need the extra day off. Have been too engrossed with work (among others, but yes, about half my day already goes to work lately that I have not had time to do stuff for myself. I can't even have a decent lunch break without people looking for me. The old saying that says all work and no play makes someone dull is so true. At times, I ask myself, "What am I doing?" There are instances wherein I'm so stressed that I lose track of what I should be doing and instead do a whole lot of stuff that isn't even part of my job responsibilities in the first place. I have to learn not to give in to demanding clients..and to prioritize my work before doing others' work.

On a side note, I am now a gym bunny again. I enrolled myself at Fitness First together with my officemates last week. Had my first gym session yesterday. Surprisingly, my muscles aren't as sore as I expected them to be. Need to lose weight before the holiday season starts. Sudden thought, I have to figure our how to maintain my weight during the holiday season if I do lose weight from now till December, that is. I hope to be able to be able to buy new clothes (in a smaller size) by December. *fingers crossed*