oh! how sweet!

got this while I was blog-surfing...I found it inspirational and touching.

A Letter To The One That God Has Prepared For Me

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me. If like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.

I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.

Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known love. I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person; and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just dont know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off
my feet! Perhaps your smile, or your eyes would draw me to you, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways!

I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me - the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all the pain and sacrifice.

After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect - for you! I wonder if youve gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if youve been hurt so many times along the journey.

But my dearest one, please dont ever give up because I am right here; patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.

At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky. Hoping that somehow you are wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when the time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!

In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry; don't be afraid about getting lost. God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.

going crazy

Have been mapping out alternative futures in my head the past few days. Now, I'm picking up my review books again. I am seriously considering a Master's degree now. There were a lot of factors contributing to this decision, first being, my dad's friend informed me about this great program that could be the start of a whole lot of opportunities. Second, I can't seem to get a new job that has more career growth, so I have to learn something new. Third, which is partly related to the second,one of my officemates was talking about jobs that are much similar to one I am doing now, except that those companies pay better, and I don't think I'd like to be translating forever. Even if pay is really, really good.

one year at work

Today marks my first year here at my first real job. Is it good or bad? The good would be that I have a stable job in a very safe work environment. The bad would be I have no chances for career growth...as in 0.00%. Oh, yeah, another good thing is that we have free time once in a while....although some people tend to multitask and watch videos while working. *tsk tsk* haha It's not a crime, but hey, who cares...as long as you do a good job, right? Anyway, as one of my previous officemates said, "Binabayaran ka para manuod ng series at movies, san ka pa?" Might I say, our salary is actually quite enticing? haha This is a good job except that it's totally not a career.

This said, I am now considering my options.

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met up with my HS friends last Saturday. It was the first time in months that we saw each other. I totally miss HS days. Thanks to Ka for the doggie keychain, and Lin for the hair spa..They smell real good. :)

Love Diva

I'm currently listening to F.I.R's newest album Love Diva(愛· 歌姬). I totally love the music F.I.R makes! Fave tracks are 第十行星 and 月牙灣. Wish I could sing like Faye.F.I.R has definitely evolved. Compared to their previous albums, the new album has a jazz-y feel to it.

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Weekend roundup:
My weekend started early as I took a half day leave off work on Friday because I had a job interview. After that, I went to Greenbelt to meet up with mom and dad who were shopping there. I bought a top at Zara, and a pair of shorts at M&S. =)

I spent the entire Saturday in front of the PC. Fixing the desktop and installing some programs on my laptop and putting album covers on the songs in my iTunes library. Really, my iPod is making me so O.C. haha

Yesterday, we went to Grandma's house to have an advance celebration of her birthday. She's turning 88 this year.

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"Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head and remind yourself of who you are. And where you wanna be. And sometimes you have to venture outside your world in order to find yourself."- Gossip Girl

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everybody!

As you all saw with my last entry, nothing really significant happened in 2007. I guess I was still adjusting to the "real" world. haha yeah, that's just an excuse, I know. Well here are the 5 things that I hope to achieve this year.

1. get a new job (aka have a career shift) - I love my job and all, but this is not something I'd want to be doing forever. Or worse, something I'm doing when everybody is doing something I would want to be doing.

2. get a good GMAT score/ learn something new - by good I mean 650-ish. I'm so grade conscious. haha But it's a goal that I hope to achieve. At least it keeps me motivated to review. As for the latter one, I want to take up a cooking course. hehe

3. get healthy- All this sitting at work is making me lethargic. Need to move more.

4. master a foreign language - been trying to do this one for years. I've tried learning Spanish, Korean and Cantonese. I haven't succeeded in being fluent in any of those languages.

5. meet new friends - no explanation needed. Everybody likes to meet new people, right?

Let's hope I get to accomplish at least 2 of those. Wish me luck!