For all my friends...

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I want to know 26 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other.
1. Can you cook?
2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. Are you Dirty or Clean?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?

HERE COMES THE FUN ...
1. How did we meet?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Negative or Optimistic?
4. What was your dream growing up?
5. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Tell me one weird fact about you:
8. Whats your favorite memory of us?
10. Have you ever kept anything from me?
11. What do you think of me as a Person?
12. Do you think I'm sane or insane?
13. Would you cry for me if I died?
14. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. How do you fall asleep?
17. Ever gotten angry with me?
18. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?
19. If you had one day to live, what would you do?
20. A million bucks.. what would you do with it?
21. What is your worst fear?
22. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
23. Can you sing or dance?
24. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest....
25. Will you repost this so I can fill it out ?

*kindly email me your answers ;)

morning greeting

Checked out my blog frist thing when I got to the office today. I just checked my tagboard, out of curiosity to see if someone had left a message, and I saw that someone had left a message saying I hate you and z. I want to know why. I'm sure I never did anything to that someone to hurt him or whatever. So, why should he/she say something that is just plain hurtful?

Five things

was browsing through a blog a couple of days ago and I saw a list of 5 things the author wanted people to know. Thought I might make my own. hehe I'm pretty talkative, and outgoing so I'm not sure what I haven't told people yet.

1. I never get the first slice of bread in a loaf. I don't know why. I always grab the second slice of bread in the bag.
2. I don't like bargaining. Even when I go to 168 or Divisoria...I just don't like haggling for purchases. I don't know if its just because I'm shy or that I know that if I had a shop, I wouldn't want anyone bargaining with me either. hehe
3. I've worn eyeglasses since I was 5(not sure. but its somewhere around that). I have inborn astigmatism and my parents noticed that I sit extremely near the TV, si they took me to the optometrist to have my eyes checked, and before I knew it, I wore glasses.
4. I dream in black and white sometimes. This is weird actually. I normally dream in color, but when I dream about m maternal grandfather its almost always in black and white.
5. Uhm....I don't know what to put here yet. haha Just check back on this post next time.

I can't believe somebody could kill 32 people and think it's not their fault

Cho offers glimpse into tortured soul

The killer returned to brandish his weapons one more time and speak, surreally, from the grave.
His eyes seemed heavy-lidded, his voice dull, his words a rambling monotone of bitterness and hate. It may have been Cho Seung-Hui's intention to explain the motivation for the horror he would unleash, but the video that aired Wednesday night on NBC News actually offered a glimpse into his soul.

"You have vandalized my heart, raped my soul and torched my conscience," he said into the camera, looking down occasionally to read from his manifesto. "You thought it was one pathetic boy's life you were extinguishing. Thanks to you, I die like Jesus Christ, to inspire generations of the weak and the defenseless people."

By the time the 23-year-old student had videotaped his suicide message, he knew what was to come. He hoped that a stunned and grieving nation would listen, riveted, to his words.

"I didn't have to do this. I could have left. I could have fled," he said. "But no, I will no longer run."

"It's not for me. For my children, for my brothers and sisters. ... I did it for them."

What was he running from? Of whom did he speak? Was it a last cry of help, or a last show of hate? What was Cho thinking when he compared himself to Jesus? What was he thinking when he glared into the camera and addressed a nation that would still be burying its dead?

The sullen loner known as "the question mark kid" by some classmates — because he entered a question mark instead of his name on a class signup sheet one day — left his audience with more questions than answers. Questions about killers, and loners, and delusions of martyrdom.

Incongrously, Cho grinned in some sections of his video. Leaning against a car window, his black baseball cap worn backwards, he almost looked like any normal student.

But then there were the photos — of him grimly pointing two guns at the camera, holding a gun to his temple, wielding a hammer with two hands.

And, always, the invective flowed.

"You had a hundred billion chances and ways to have avoided today," he said. "But you decided to spill my blood. You forced me into a corner and gave me only one option. The decision was yours. Now you have blood on your hands that will never wash off."

The target of his hatred was fellow students at Virginia Tech, where Cho massacred 32 people Monday.

"Your Mercedes wasn't enough, you brats," he said. "Your golden necklaces weren't enough you snobs. Your trust funds wasn't enough. Your vodka and cognac wasn't enough. All your debaucheries weren't enough. Those weren't enough to fulfill your hedonistic needs. You had everything."

Cho, it seems, had nothing.

He had no friends, no normal college life, no reason to live.

Just a death wish.

And a desire to show the whole world his disturbed heart.

Is he weird or what? Why couldn't he just let his anger out on something else? He could take up a sport, break stuff or something. If he didn't want to blame his parents, why not just blame himself for not being able to choose his own parents?Is it the fault of other people to have something better than what he has?

And another thing, he's been a loner for years, didn't anyone tell him to see a psychiatrist or guidance counselor or something? Didn't his parents notice? Or are they just didn't want to admit that there is something wrong with their son? It's obvious that he has a disturbed and perverted mind. Either that or he's just mislead.

I pity him for not being able to be enlightened on life. He really denied himself the chance to actually let go of all his hatred and live. It's so sad how one person could actually be so selfish and self-centered. He hates other people, but really, does he think other people like him, especially now after all this sorrow he has caused? I don't think he ever wanted to be liked in the first place...

just dropping by

Guess what I translated yesterday..."It is fun making a baby but it is not fun being pregnant." haha I found it, I don't know, cute? I probably won't laugh about it when the time comes that I get pregnant.

Anyway, just dropped by to post this:

30 Things You Might Not Know!! by ktwalter73
What are you listening to right now?:	Eva Avila-I Owe It All To You
What was the last thing you ate?:	Grilled Chicken, with Kimchi
If you were a crayon what color would you be?:	sky blue
How is the weather right now?:	hot
What color is your underwear right now?:	er...
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:	my dad
The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?:	eyes
Favorite type of food?:	spicy
Do you drink?:	water? yea...
Ever got so drunk you dont remember?:	no
What color are your eyes?:	brown
Single?:	yes
Favorite month?:	July
Last movie you watched?:	Happily Never After
Favorite day of the week?:	Saturday
Are you too shy to ask someone out?:	yes
Hugs or Kissess?:	both?
Chocolate or Vanilla?:	Vanilla
What books are you reading?:	GMAT reviewer..hahaha joke Devil and Ms. Prym
Piercings?:	ears lang
Favorite movie?:	too many to mention
Any pets?:	none
Aim?:	huh?
Dogs or Cats?:	cats
Favorite flower?:	tulips
Have you ever fired a gun?:	no
Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?:	am ok with both
Right handed or left handed?:	right
How many pillows do you sleep with?:	4
Are you missing someone?:	yes
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Way Back Into Love

Way Back Into love
by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett
from the Music and Lyrics soundtrack

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh

What a girl wants...

Ok, am not exactly saying that the guy I want has to have all of the above characteristics. But really, I'd really like a guy that would "baby" me once in a while. Someone who would tell me what he's feeling instead of forever making me do guesswork. Someone who won't leave me hanging and waiting for a reply. Although, I'd understand if you're busy, or your phone is out of battery or prepaid or out of the network coverage area.

Oh yeah...I think I said this before, I'd like him to be Filipino-Chinese, can speak Chinese well, has a good family, and physical-wise, taller than me. hehe

That's not much to ask,or is it?

And then there were 3...

Dropped Candee off at the Chinese language summer camp thingie at Xavier yesterday morning. She'll be there for 1 month. I'm going to miss her.(although I don't think I'd admit that to her face. hehe) Met 3 people there yesterday, Jezelle and WenWen(from last year in Beijing) and Sandy(from FGS). All I have to say is, its a good thing Candee isn't in the same room as WW. I can still remember that she kept taking me and Candee's things in Beijing last year. If that ever happens, am sure my shobe will be able to handle it.

Mom and Dad will be left alone when I got to Batangas on the 28th with my officemates. But then again, they will have to get used to instances like this,since one day, we will have to get married or go out into the world if we choose the career path. Back to the main topic, can't wait to go to the beach! It's been ages since I last felt sand between my toes. poor me...haha But then I do wish that I could shape up a bit. hehe No one's going to look, but syempre I want to look good. haha anyone want to be my gym buddy?

10 days left before Heroes ep19 comes out! Yey! Can't wait for that...and also the next episode of Ugly Betty. I actually like the US version compared to the Colombian one.

I realized something this week. Love is not guesswork. If you like somebody, you have to say it out. It's hard especially when both parties kinda like each other, but the one thats supposed to initiate(if you may call it that) the relationship is so shy about it...just forever hinting about it, expecting me to just say it. Personally, I feel that it just doesn't work that way. He has to say it directly, coz there is no way am going to admit first. hehe

back from korea...back to work

Am back from my 5 day "vacation" in Korea..haha It was fun, I admit. but I didn't have enough sleeping time(and my neck aches from sleeping on the bus.hehe) I loved the place. It is a very clean country...compared to some places. haha I absolutely love Korean food, had Kimchi at every meal, but am not complaining. Dad and Candee don't eat spicy food so I had to eat more Kimchi than the other food. Enjoyed the cool weather, although my skin did get very dry. I also love the scenery at Nam-i Islnd, the place where Winter Sonata was shot. Its so calm and serene. Great place to go to for honeymooners.

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Oh yeah...I found out why I never get stressed at school or work. It's because of my dad...it's impossible not to get stressed when he always wants to get what he wants. He just needs to get his way,gets mad if he doesn't. So, after that kind of training, nothing really stresses me out.

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Took the Tickle Inkblot test...
Charlene, your subconscious mind is driven most by Imagination This means you have a deep desire to use innovative ideas to enhance your life and influence the world around you. This drive influences you far more than you may realize on a conscious level.
Your need to be innovative drives how you look at new opportunities and the kinds of experiences in life you choose to have. On an unconscious level, the reason you may be so driven by imagination is your fear of destruction, the opposite of creation. When you are unable to create due to restrictions imposed by your environment or even ones you unwittingly impose on yourself, do you feel trapped or confined? You may find these feelings of unease only get better when you find another outlet for your imagination.
With such a strong creative orientation, you are willing to entertain a broad spectrum of ideas at any given time. The world is a fuller, richer place because you can contribute new ideas to any experience. Your natural curiosity inspires those around you and encourages them to come up with ideas they wouldn't have thought of without your help.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Imagination, there is much more to who you are at your core.

China beckons...

Over the past few weeks, I've received 2 opportunities to go to China. One is to study, on a full scholarship, in Yunnan. The second is to work at a China-based software company. It's overwhelming to just see the opportunities coming, but the decision making is hard. I have always wanted to escape from my life here in Manila, but now since I have a job that I quite enjoy and all, I kinda don't want to leave..haha am I too sentimental? But really, if ever the Chinese company calls again and I do get accepted for the position, I would probably go. For starters, I've always wanted to work in China, and its not just to escape my parents. I feel that if ever I work there, it will be a real challenge and I would learn a lot from it. Two, I also want to experience working as an expat. You know, being around a lot of people who come from a different background and culture. I agree that it will be harder since I will be on my own, but I am up to the challenge. Just hope that their compensation package is good. hehe Anyway, about the 2 opportunities at hand, is it a sign that I should go to China?

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Watched Ugly Betty's episodes 1 to 8. I love it! It's different from the mexican version. I love Salma Hayek in the series...she looks great! I also like Amanda's character. She's not the typical "woman-working-in-the-fashion-biz" type of girl. She's just cute in some weird way, I guess.

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am starting to get lucky in my career, but I wish I can say the same for love. I just thought things over and felt that somehow I am not ready to get into a long distnace relationship. These kind of relationships take a lot of patience and work. It also needs a lot of love to make it work. It isn't complicated, just hard. You don't get to see each other much, and the physical distance is not really the problem, but how its hard to tell what the other party is feeling right now.