lesson learnt

Master Miao Jing shared with me a valuable lesson today. She started by asking me why the "Mu Yu" is called such. I of course said that I didn't know. Then, she replied because the fishes' eyes are closed, and that it signifies yun shi zhuan shi(at least thats what I heard) Bottom line is, it means that we should not let the situation we are in change us, rather we should change the way we think to control the situation we are in.

Being lead...

I think some leaders were meant to lead, and then there are some leaders that are meant to be lead. I fall in the latter category. Since I was chosen to lead a group, I notice that I have a lot of self-appointed political advisers, not complaining though. They are all doing a great job, although I always seem to be the last to know anything, since they discuss things on their own and tell me when everything is set. That is just sooo frustrating. I know they are older, but shouldn't they know better?

Perhaps I am just trying to do what Oscar Wilde says when he said that “Those who try to lead the people can only do so by following the mob.”

I really need to be more courageous and express myself more.

Growing up...

I think I finally grew up last month...not because it was my 24th birthday. haha I was sent to China for training ALONE. It was my first time ever traveling without a companion. I was scared when I found out I'd be alone to say the least. And considering that it would be my first time to go to Shenzhen, I was even more apprehensive. The flight booked for me was from Manila to Hongkong, so I had to take care of the Hongkong-Shenzhen transportation by myself. (I took the 7-seater van of the Eternal East Bus Lines at the Hong Kong Airport for RMB180. Took the same van back to Hong Kong.) The whole trip was very smooth. Didn't have any problem at immigration or customs. My dad and mom drove me to the airport for my flight and my mom accompanied me up to the place where the line for the security checks start. I was so used to having someone to talk to while going through the security process, check-in, immigration and wait, and I was scared when I turned my head and my mom was like 1 meter behind me. I then realized, "Oh my God! I'm travelling on my own. What will I do?" I kept on texting my mom while I was in China, when I woke up, when I arrived at the office and when I got home and before I went to bed. It's ironic how much I want to live on my own and be independent and when given the opportunity to be independent for a few weeks, I felt homesick...as in, really homesick. Indeed, there's no place like home.

technology and romance

Had a pretty good week...although last Friday there was an uber makulit old man that demanded to go into the bank after banking hours, and I had to go out and talk to him. I hit my head on the steel door while I was coming back in. Still hurts when I press on it. The old man had extremely bad manners and had the nerve to say that I wouldn't hit myself if we had just let him in. Excuse me, but who are you? Would anyone in their right mind let a stranger go into the bank after office hours. Of course not....duh!

After that stressing event, we at the office had merienda from Starbucks c/o Donna. Thanks Donna! And then for dinner, me, Sir Herman and Pan had dinner at I'm Angus. Pan and I had the 16 oz T-Bone, while Sir Herman had the Tomahawk steak. The meat was so tender, we had ours done medium rare, and it was grilled perfectly. It was soft and juicy, but not to the point that there was still a lot of blood. We were so stuffed after. I wasn't able to finish my food pa..we had red wine, and as usual, I got real red after just one glass. I only had one glass for the entire evening, but it was good with the steak.

We had a seminar at the office yesterday. After that, I met up with Atsi Dol and Atsi Joy for crepe at Cafe Breton. Yum! It's been a while since I've had crepes. We were talking about guys and how technology has made it quite easy for guys to court girls. Before, guys would have to visit the girl and really talk to her. Two people actually spend time together to find out if they are really compatible. Now, guys can just grab their cellphone and text a simple, "Hi, good morning, have a nice day, kumain ka na" or "I miss you" or "How was your day?" All this is just too easy. It's pretty hard to determine if the guy is really into you or is he just uhm...texting you out of boredom. (Ouch!)

makeovers

Right now, I am in the process of changing myself. It's a self-makeover. It's time that I grow up. I've said this for the longest time, but somehow, I still can't do this, express myself more. I try to, but I just can't. Although lately, I've noticed that I've changed a bit. I've become more outgoing and I now know better to shut up and not react when there is something that is happening that is not according to what I think should be happening.

Also, before I may be annoyed when people overpower me. Now, I am thankful that I have people like them around me, because for one thing, they can overpower the one person that I can't control. That one person, I must be thankful for too, because he is teaching me to stretch my patience level. And in more ways than one, he and his supporter(not that he has just one, but there is this certain one that is very vocal) have let me know that I am not actually as meek as I thought I was. I can fight back and stand up for myself when I know whats right. I am not one to just stand down when people gang up on me and confront me for something I never did.

To more changes for the better......cheers!